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Journal Entry: Thu Jul 3, 2008, 6:49 PM
  • Mood: Disgust
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Eating: Air
  • Drinking: Saliva
I miss drawing.
I miss loving it.
I miss it consuming my life.

I have started sketches, but then never finished them. I have ideas in my head, but can't seem to get them on paper. I look at my old work and want to redo it. I have looked at my old sketches and want to finish them.

There's just no motivation.

This depression, this feeling cripples me.
When I'm alone I get this strong feeling of abandonment. I hate it.

I use to be alright with being alone.....

I hope soon I can finally get back into creating art. I want to make something of myself and I want it to be through my art.

I don't want to give up.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 23
  • Interests: Drawing, video games, music
  • Favourite genre of music: Industrial/EBM/Synthpop/Darkwave/etc
  • Operating System: Windows Vista
  • Personal Quote: Dude....
  • Tools of the Trade: pencils, pens and paper......oh, and Adobe Photoshop CS3

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~maskofmemories:iconmaskofmemories: Jul 5, 2008, 4:43:03 PM
Hello! I meet you at EPAC. Thank you for buying my prints, and for giving me advice and encouragement about selling my art ^^; Your gallery is lovely! I hope you are able to get internet soon so maybe we can keep in touch. Well, talk to you later :)
~Enigmata-the-Hated:iconEnigmata-the-Hated: Jul 1, 2008, 12:35:09 PM
Ha. Glad you remember me.
~Defekte-Traume:iconDefekte-Traume: Jun 30, 2008, 11:09:56 AM
Lol, I'm on DA still. I just don't come here often because I'm having trouble getting the internet set up in my new place and I'm not allowed to visit this site on my work computer......which means I'm probably going to get in trouble because I'm using my work computer right now. >_<

Anyway, I remember who you are. I believe you were the one trying to take pictures of my cleavage. =P
J/k

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~Enigmata-the-Hated:iconEnigmata-the-Hated: Jun 16, 2008, 11:24:38 AM
Stopping by to say hello. I was at the El Paso Anime Con at one of the artist alley tables, the guy with blue hair...

Anyway, thanks for the support, and although you might not be on DA any more, I thought I'd say thanks anyway.
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~Defekte-Traume:iconDefekte-Traume: Jan 30, 2008, 12:17:31 PM
I am German. I just don't live in Germany and I'm not fluent in the German language. o_O

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~krapfor:iconkrapfor: Jan 29, 2008, 1:43:40 PM
thought you were german when i read 'defekte traume'...

i really like your style, especially in your newer uploads. :D

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~ditto9:iconditto9: Jan 25, 2008, 1:47:32 PM
From a quick glance, your gallery/art looks really cool :D I'll add you now, but I'll have to look more thoroughly later :(
bye!

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~Defekte-Traume:iconDefekte-Traume: Jan 24, 2008, 6:09:39 PM
Hehe, thanks. Hopefully my new work will help a little. =P

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*justgotwicked7:iconjustgotwicked7: Jan 24, 2008, 12:33:41 PM
Beautiful designs, your work should definitely be more noticed ^_^

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~Defekte-Traume:iconDefekte-Traume: Jan 24, 2008, 10:31:52 AM
Hehe, how could I NOT watch you again? I love your work. :nod:

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=psyconorikan:iconpsyconorikan: Jan 23, 2008, 11:39:22 PM
Thank you so much for the re-watch!! ^-^

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=Raichana:iconRaichana: Jan 22, 2008, 7:11:39 PM
thanks for stopping by ^^

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~sugar-choucroutte:iconsugar-choucroutte: Mar 1, 2007, 11:11:22 AM
Thanks a lot for fav ! =D

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~blackswordsman28:iconblackswordsman28: Nov 24, 2006, 10:59:57 AM
:ninjaplot:

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~minikuiyoma:iconminikuiyoma: Aug 25, 2006, 10:14:19 PM
Thank you for adding me, I love your gallery...no matter how much of a cliche that has become here.

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~Defekte-Traume:iconDefekte-Traume: Mar 1, 2006, 7:52:09 PM
Thanks! ^_^

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~Passion-Assassin:iconPassion-Assassin: Feb 21, 2006, 11:12:09 PM
Hey random deviant! What a cool style :D It's really unique, I like it a lot!

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~Defekte-Traume:iconDefekte-Traume: Jan 13, 2006, 8:07:43 PM
:giggle:

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~LollilovesPop:iconLollilovesPop: Jan 13, 2006, 7:13:46 PM
...~? I have not a clue.<3
~aequinoxium:iconaequinoxium: Jan 13, 2006, 6:37:38 PM
hahaha oh come on, be eccentric
~Defekte-Traume:iconDefekte-Traume: Jan 13, 2006, 3:36:51 AM
:w00t: HURRAY!! :w00t:

What are we cheering for? :-O

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